Sept. 29

Nothing but good news! :]

Bone Marrow test came back normal today!! What relief! So that means that I am still stage 2 and not stage 4, so I can continue on with my treatments normally. :]

And today I get to go see dreamy Dr. Derosa. ;) He's the one who took my ovary, and he is something else... HAHA!

Yesterday went great by the way. The nurses said they gave me the mean stuff during week one which made me miserable. But yesterday I still felt fine just a little extra tired than normal. I still felt good enough though to go out to dinner with my family to kind of celebrate how good I was doing I guess. :]

Just know that all your prayers are working and I could never tell you how much I appreciate them. Thank you guys sooooooo much!!!

Sept. 27

Day before week 2.. yuck!
So I'm going to get out of the house before I'm stuck in bed all day again!!


I also wanted to ask you guys to not only pray for me, but pray for my friends nephew. His name is Sean he's 36 and has a 2 month old baby. He has been diagnosed with something I think is a lot worse than cancer. I don't exactly know the name of it but it is rare and has only been reported in like 30000 people in America. Its something to do with the proteins in your body but it create something like tumors that attach to your organs. They are treating it like cancer though and started him on chemo right away. Just pray for him and his family and that he can beat this.

Thanks guy!

Sep 25

Well I'm definitely feeling the chemo, even days later. My jaw hurts (weird symptom, i know) I have those awesome mouth sores.. And my body just all together aches.. And last night i woke up around 2am and i didn't go to sleep until 9 this morning. I was siiiick to my stomach! :[
My mouth hurts to eat or even drink water :[ and I wake up frequently at night because my body hurts so bad :[
I will admit, trying to stay positive is getting harder. But I'm trying!

Sept. 24

Yesterday was a wonderful day. I finally got out of the house and went to see a movie with Joey. Also, I was able to drive my car!!!! Which now has a spoiler :] Well after the movies Joey and I went back to my house to enjoy are Taco Bell dinner (and pills for me) Well I think something a little less fast food-ish would have been a better meal choice.. But after that we went up to school to discuss dropping me for the semester. Although we were bombarded with lots of information, nothing has changed and as far as SCC is concerned I'm still a student there. And after all that I'm started to feel run down from all of the activities but mom suggested I drive her in my car to my sisters.. so that I did :]
But today is a different day. I really don't feel as awesome as I felt yesterday, everything aches.. But it's so gourgeous outside I think I might push myself to go to the park with Joey and my Deucey dog :]
Some fresh air might make me feel better :]

Sept 21

First day of chemo.. not fun
but no one told me it would be.
It made me severely tired and i went home and slept all day. I woke up once to eat a little bit and now I'm struggling staying awake to write this and eat a little more.
They really thought i was going to get really nauseous and i haven't yet and i pray i don't because that'll hurt my stomach really bad...
Cancer really sucks!!
11 more treatments!! woooo...... haha :]

keep praying please :]
love you guys

Sept. 18, 2010

Day after my last surgery:
Finally home, still in quite a bit of pain though.. not as bad as yesterday though.. ouch
So I'm hoping that the worst is over and everything can just get better from here..
The doctors have all been wonderful to me, but my body is under a lot of stress right now and can't quite handle all of this at once. My mom has been very helpful to me. She helps me get in and out of bed and even helps me get dressed.. haha I'm her wittle baby again :]
Well I just wanted to let you all know how things were going and that all is well, (except for all the pain I'm in but that's normal after you get an ovary taken out...)
I don't start chemo until tuesday now because one of the drugs won't be in until then which is good...
I'm not sure if I have mentioned this either but I am dropping out of school this semester just to keep things a little less stressful for me. It's one last thing to worry about..

but thank you all for all your support and prayers.. love you all

Thurs, Sept. 16, 2010

Well its been a painful past two days with them cutting me open and sticking a port in me and today they stuck a giant needle in me and took some bone marrow... wow that was very painful and i was awake the whole time. They tried to numb me and gave me more and more pain medicine threw the iv but i could feel it all and i cried the whole time. :[ It wasn't until the doctor said okay we're all done that i finally passed out. It was not fun at all. I had to lay on my stomach too so i was already in pain before they even started from laying on my port. NOT A GOOD DAY!
When we were done with that I wanted my pain medication and some french onion soup in a bread bowl from Bread co, so we went and dropped off my prescription and went and met my sister up there. I felt a little better after eating but then i think all the medication wore off and it was time to go. We picked up my new best friend and i took it in the car and i went straight to bed when i got home.
Someone from church brought us food and i think we're getting more food tomorrow. I ate too much today.. haha usually I've just been eating one meal a day today I had two and now I don't feel good so I'm back in bed..
Tomorrow is the last surgery and their taking my ovary out and freezing it just in case the chemo makes me infertal and I can't have kids later. So it's just a precaution but it's amazing that I even have that option. So pray for me for tomorrow because I think it's going to hurt worse than today and yesterday hurt.
Thanks for all the prayers, the cards, the flowers, the food, and the cupcakes :]
I love you guys :]

Mon. Sept. 13, 2010 pt 2

OH YEAH! I got a new car on friday!!! It's so beautiful! :D

Mon, Sept. 13, 2010

Went to the doctors today for a follow up on the scans. Turns out the cancer is spreading up and its right by my collar bone, you can feel it. So now it turns out that since the mass is so HUGE that it's stage 2 hodgkins. If the bone marrow test comes back positive then it's stage 4, but the doctor seems to really think it won't be. But who knows, the doctor really didn't think that the mass in my chest was cancer either.

So today we scheduled everything to come:
Wednesday we put in the port
Thursday is the bone marrow test
Friday we are going to have surgery to take out an ovary
MONDAY i start chemo

It turns out also that since its stage 2 my chemo has changed a little and i will be going once a week instead of once every two weeks. But the bright side is that its once a week for 12 weeks instead of once every two weeks for 6 months.

Well that's all i can think of right now, love you guys.

Thurs, Sept. 9, 2010

God is GOOD :]

We went to the infertility doctor today and he told us that he thinks the best thing for me is to take out a whole ovary. He said this way if i can still have kids after chemo then we won't even need to put it back in me. It's basically reassurance for later in life which is awesome. The doctor also told us that insurance might not cover this procedure, but he said that if they don't he won't charge us for anything. That is awesome. So I'm having surgery sometime next week. Their thinking Wednesday, after i see the cancer doctor on Monday.

Something I am really thankful for right now are my friends. As you all know i have been searching for a new car since mine was killed. Particularly a Scion TC (which is made by Toyota) Today a lady from Lou Fuze Toyota called my dad today. She said a few of their detail boys and some other people that work there know me and know all that's going on right now. She told my dad that they would take off some money on a brand new car for me. I don't know who works there but they said they went to school with me, so that's just awesome.

Now you understand why I said God is GOOD! :D

Tues, Sept. 7, 2010

I got my hair cut today!!! ITS SOOOO SHORT!! We put it in a pony tail and cut it off for locks of love. I wasn't expecting it to be this short but we had to cut it that short for the locks of love requirements. Its okay though the cut is growing on me... It's so different. Everyone seems to like it though. Here's some pictures!






scared!!




glad we didn't keep it like that :]


sad :[


you can see the back in the mirror

Wed, Sept. 1, 2010

This morning we went to talk to the cancer doctor. He answered almost all my questions before i asked him. I really like him. Mom had an episode again when we entered the cancer care center. haha... I think, no I know she's taking this worse than I am. haha but that's mom for you. The doctor said we would probably start chemo in a week or 2. He said the chemotherapy was a combination of four medications. And one of them in that combo will not allow me to take high concentrated oxygen, so that means when i go to the dentist to get my wisdom teeth pulled their going to have and iv instead of the gas mask. And I won't ever be able to go scuba diving!!! I'm a little upset about that since that was on my list of things to do before i die, but i guess snorkeling will be just as good.
The doctor also told us today that that I would start loosing hair 1-2 weeks after we started the chemo, so i better get a wig soon! :p Oh and we can't call it a wig, its a cranial prosthesis. That was I can get a prescription written for it and i don't have to pay for it because those things are expensive! My boyfriends dad said his friend had lymphoma and never lost his hair, but people are different. But if I don't I'm still going to donate my hair to locks of love.
Oh ya, if you haven't heard I'm donating 10 inches of my hair to locks of love. I thought if it does fall out I'll let someone else use it rather than it go down the shower drain or in the trash.
If all my hair does fall out I'm not looking forward to short hair when it grows back. I HATE SHORT HAIR!!! but ya never know maybe it'll grow on me. (pun not intended.)

I would just like to thank everyone again for all your prayers and encouragement!
Love you all!