November 22

I had a really good week last week, I almost felt normal again! Still a little weak though but I got used to that. My stomach hasn't been hurting at all either lately which is awesome with Thanksgiving coming up :] I hope today's chemo won't be too hard on me. Typical, I'm wore out today but hopefully I can have another week like last week. But I just take things day by day.
I've really started looking back into going back to school. I found A LOT of scholarships too for people with cancer or cancer survivors, so hopefully I can get one for being a cancer survivor when I'm all done with this. I need to get accepted to a college first because I don't really want to go back to the community college, even though I was there for like two weeks... I've been looking into MO State they aren't too expensive.

Any who it was Dustin's last day of chemo today, i wish him luck and we still need to pray for him they still don't know if they got it all but I hope he did so he can get back to life..
Here's his story:
http://www.ksdk.com/news/local/story.aspx?storyid=227139

oh and here's meeee

Baldy!!! or fuzz ball?

My mother said, "Your head is like a pregnant lady's belly, everyone wants to rub it."
She's special... :] I love you mom!!

THREE MORE CHEMOS!!
thanks everyone, don't stop praying!!

Novemeber 10

So for the past week I was in the hospital. I went to the ER Wednesday night around 10pm and was in there all night till about 4:45am when they admitted me. I was there for the same reasons I was there last time, pain management!! As soon as I got to the ER and they hooked me up they were giving me dilaudid, which is stronger than morphine :] Also while in the hospital I was given shots of heperin, which raises my white blood cell count, and I was also given a blood transfusion, to raise my red blood cells. It gave me a little more energy, not too much but a little, it made me want to go for a walk around the hospital. Which to me felt like a work out, since I never move any more, when I got back to my room I was sweating! Pathetic.. :[ But the day they discharged me from the hospital I had a CT Scan and Chemo.. I was really not wanting to go to chemo, I cried almost the whole time, I was finally feeling pretty good and then the chemo just brought me right back down, and I did not want that.. Then today I had to go back for a part two of one of the chemo drugs, it wasn't that hard on me though, I was praying to God to give me strength, and he did. The chemo room today was full except for one seat and that was next to a guy who was close to my age I think he's 22. I'm not sure what kind of cancer he has but he was there yesterday too getting the same thing he was getting today and he'll have to go back for the rest of the week and the size of his chemo bags were huge and he had to get more than one. I really felt bad for crying the day before, I only had to be there maybe 2-3 hours while he was there all day everyday.. But I would like to think of him as my strength for today..

GOOD NEWS: the results from the CT Scan came back today, before the size of the mass was 6.9x4.6cm and the people in radiology told my onochologist that the scan was normal, (he was confused) The size of the mass is now 1.5cm.. Thank God the chemo is working, and so are your prayers..

5 MORE WEEKS!!!

November 3

I haven't been feeling good the past few days, since about Friday to be exact... Right before Halloween weekend too.. I did the best I could to have fun. A lot of pain medication and really just trying to not think about all the pain I was in..
I had chemo on monday and that really wore me out. I have never been so weak, I could barely get out of bed. My white blood count is really low again too, which is another reason why I've been so weak. So I get a shot everyday to make it go back up and what the shot does is make your own white blood cells from your bone marrow so my bones hurt pretty bad too.
So basically I feel pretty pathetic this week and would really appreciate all your prayers..
thank you all..

Oct 25

What an eventful weekend! The Benefit party was a success! Thanks to all who showed up and donated to my family, we really appreciate all of you! And I'm so glad I was feeling well because I had so much fun! There was horse back riding and hay rides and a pie eating contest/food fight! (don't worry I took off the wig first) I had so much fun!

Today was chemo though and now I feel exhausted and I did not have a fun day :[
I've been laying in bed all day, so boring but I can't do anything else..

keep praying!

october 19

Sorry it's been a while again..
I had a pretty bad week last week. I spent 8 hours in the er on monday and got no where. The Tuesday I went to chemo but i didn't get to do it because my white blood cell count was really low. Then wednesday i was admitted to the hospital where I spent the next 4 days. I was having a lot of stomach pain and we were trying to manage the pain and get my cell count up. I'm doing 110% better though now! I felt really good on monday so a couple of friends and me went to the zoo and the arch. I had an amazing day! We accidenty bumped into the lead singer from one of my favorite bands at the arch and got to take our picture with him, it was awesome!! Then we had a nice sit down dinner at McDonalds :]
Later when I got home I went upstairs to go watch tv and my tv was missing! My parents surprised me with a new one because mine was going out! Best parents ever!! :] So I had the best day ever!!
Tuesday we went back to chemo and now I'm tired and weak but I should be up and around again by the weekend. Hopefully the party doesn't get rained out we might have to move it, but I will let you guys know!!
don't stop praying! :]

October 10

Well the past two days have been miserable. It basically feels like I have the flu with out the temperature. My body aches all over and Tylenol does not help! The pain pills help but I don't really like to take them except at night so i can go to sleep. But I thought I'd write to you now after I've taken a pain pill so I'm feeling good and not complaining and being so negative, because no one wants to hear that and it gets pretty hard to stay positive when your in that much pain..
But anywhooooooo, we shaved my head I'm not completly bald because we didn't want to cut me on accident and then I'd bleed forever and I'm more prone to infection so now just little hairs are falling out and I shall be bald in no time! We got a wig and it is really pretty :] and it looks so natural. I'll put pictures up later but if your on facebook you can see them there now.
I'm really thankful I had my friends there to keep me smiling the whole time :] it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be, we actually tried to have fun with it and made silly hair styles first :]
I'm so thankful for my friends and family, I wouldn't be the same without them!

oct. 7

YIKES!!!! Tomorrow is the big day! We're shaving my head!!! My hair has really thinned out in the past two days :[ It's so weird going from having super thick hair to super thin. And My hair is falling out everywhere and its really gross so lets just get rid of it!! I'm scared!

oh and for those of you who have been reading my blog long enough to know about my friends nephew shaun, I just wanted to thank you for the prayers but he passed away this morning leaving behind his wife and his baby. Please continue to pray for his family...

Thanks guys!